bad morning

So I've spent the morning flipping out and throwing up every 5 minutes (OK, maybe it was only four or five times). Which means one of 3 things:

1) I had a panic attack
2) I'm pregnant (I know, not funny!)
3) I'm psychic and the plane was going to explode.

My money's on #1.

I totally freaked out about going to Paris. Thoughts of being lost/stranded in a country where I literally only know 3 words of the language scared the hell out of me - I got so worried something would go wrong I called the airline to check on the flight status and the hotel to re-re-re-check on my reservation. None of it made me feel any better. Then I started feeling the pressure of how much money I'd spent and how I HAD TO go (the pressure of that just made the vomiting worse).

So, I decided not to go (couldn't have gone really - couldn't stop being sick!). Long about the time I was unpacking, the nausea left.

Apparently, my parents were not asleep (despite it being 3 and 4 am) and got freaked out by my 'tweets' so I got them all upset too :(

So now I have to find something else to do with my weekend (in addition to doing some grocery shopping) so that I can stop feeling like a COMPLETE loser for chickening out.

Maybe I've just gotten too old to be adventurous on my own when I don't speak the language. Maybe I need to book some kind of tour where they will hold my hand constantly.

3 comments:

La Yen said...

There is nothing wrong with a tour. I HATE stepping out of my comfort zone. So tours are a great way to still feel safe for me. I vote tour for a day or two, then take a day to yourself and go to some of the places ON the tour that you want to do in more detail. Maybe in three or four years you will not need a tour. That is always my strategy.

Pacian said...

As they say in France: "Le singe est dans l'arbre."

LuluBunny said...

Thanks Yen! :)

And Pacian - that's NOT in my phrasebook - had to look it up online (if I were capable of understanding it on my own I might not have freaked about going to Paris!) :)

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